Introduction

the winter is coming... at least for me!

I ended a “friendship” with someone I really liked. I felt bad because I truly thought it would turn into something special—something that would give us many stories to tell in the future. Unfortunately, it didn’t happen. The person didn’t resonate with me at all, so I had to simply walk away.

I’ve done things like this for quite a while now… always leaving people in my past. I’ve done it so many times that sometimes I even think people from my past might have found me on Telegram and silently stalk me. I never liked doing it. But every time I have to let someone go, I don’t feel extremely sad. Instead, I look at maps or pictures of the sky. Sometimes I even go up to rooftops when I have the chance, just to stare at the tiny lights of apartments, stores, and houses.

Ueda. circa 2007

I like to imagine that there are so many people out there, beyond my field of view, in distant places… hidden from me. They’re out there, waiting for me, people who will truly resonate with me and introduce me to things I’ve never experienced before. Someday, someone might invite me to hide on a boat in the Atlantic Ocean at night... I just feel it might happen!

And then, I’ll find someone I value more than anyone else, someone truly special to me. But for now, I have no idea who they are or where they exist. Everything feels vivid and dreamlike. I can go wherever I want, experience whatever I want—I love it all. It makes me feel alive.

How about you, my reader? Maybe you’re one of those people I’ll come across—someone who will change my life. Please, don’t say “it will never happen.” It can happen. I have faith in you, and you should have faith in me too. We should have faith in humanity and in our ability to truly connect with one another.

Sayonara, my reader!